A Disciple's Thread

[NoNun2]

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[NoNun2]

Good morning!

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[NoNun2]

Stop acting like you are going to make stalking me legal too

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Ooops meant the one…

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We Don’t Give a Fuck

You wanna play? Blow out my brain?
Evidentially it’s easy
Or what ever miss pimp your name is to please he
Believe me this shit is easy
You want a war you playing no doubt you want a shout?
Then you throw like you even about it
Or Is it
Bitch not even one visit
You wanna call bitches to your name
But who are you if I’m the one legally insane
But then tie me
TI what’s the time b
Strutting with a new vision trick
You been known I’m not the one on another nickels dick
You wanna be a prick?
I can show you
Only if you upfront what I owe you
You wanna bring blood
I’ll curse his name too
And go out above all measures cause they reduced my life to some game 2
I’m charging $259 a rob and a sleep
Bitches I been called homicide
Cause that’s the land that I creep
But my moms supposed to pay for you
Where’s your vest dawg?
Just prove that I owe you…

MG get at me 1 we fix it

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I didn’t and never did do it though

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Rule 3: don’t go around people when you don’t feel good or like yourself

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Cause “we is the best dawg”

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You know the police address here her a beeper code… LMAO I started to suspect

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Nah not me or my style… it’s why I made a hiding spot for the kids cause I JUST put it together

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Why you hate me though?

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Praying for a do over… someone got me for my card and some cash

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They feel they should take over all rites and I’m trying to fight but

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The littlest what makes me glitch now

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Stupid bitches…

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Then why do I feel like this, guilty and helpsesss like this and a burden like this feeling like I’m the one stealing money?

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How much money you put into this and how much do you allegedly give me?

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Then you want me to sit here and feel something for you too?

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It’s twisted I’m not impressed and move in on me anytime you like to

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BECAUSE I AGREE I CANT UNTIL THEY STOP DOING THIS AND SLEEPING ME AND
Y FREE WILL

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I’m so embarrassed I can’t look my own mom in the eye right now

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It’s not my partner and never was… was that livers picking up MR?

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Jicera* … get them out my body and make them stop disrespectfing it too

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Thought death was coming for me…

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She left…idk if she one of his… idk or understand what’s going on

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She back…

[NoNun2]

It felt like school didn’t like me again

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And it’s hard to tell 50 cause it’s awkward to do to pac… did he know I was clueless?

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Pac… like if pac is alive he need to prove it to me asap

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But if they don’t leave I’ll never be sane again… why they allowed to do that to me though?

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I can’t fight psychs and don’t even want to

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How do I get better if you’re still fucking with my head?

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Probably why they all try to kill me so much

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I suppose im pac the one that who got $50k to bring me back? … I’m gonna sleep and let my team handle it.



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Pick a side

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Nah it didn’t click that she fucked C

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Idk what to say other than IM SORRY AGAIN

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I don’t always wanna fuck you up I really don’t think it is that serious thpugh

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But yeah fix it

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Death row not sitting low though… I’m Cali too

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You all not gonna make me scared to see my family and cousins either

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They stole my credit card too

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I’m not gonna live scared anymore… what I’m supposed to stay in the house and be scared?

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Tell my mom cause idk how to

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I know this means someone get all my rites now over money and stuff

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I’m ok…

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You stole my title so I’ll call it Losing Cheryl and what it feels like to lose yourself too

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46… when I bought my drop I was gaging 53

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Nah don’t ever leave me in some center eating checkers for real

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Why is it all or nothing though?

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I cried on my 30th bday… I’m different

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Cause I already am not myself

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And I can feel that and it makes it worse

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With the extra too… not trying to be ungrateful trying to balance

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That traumatized me but ok calming down

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Seen it and trusted before

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My daughter… I want to see her

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While I’m mostly here not to play the sick card or anything

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And when I trusted that and trusted them there was my license pic in a sports bra and I didn’t sleep with my bf for 3 years and didn’t notice

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Or forgot

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Just wanna be in mental hospice and comfortable in my own body

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Hair is fun I like it… but they take it so easy I don’t trust I’m good at it

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But you guys make me sick on purpose then say I’m not crazy

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You what? Neck and neck with my daughter? The roaches was getting in your crib so I plugged to hole with my bubble gum.. dont you ever in your life speak to me or of me like that again. I’m sorry for how you were raised but on my realest FUCK YOU TOO

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Baby in the trash… smh alright

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Rented you $5k dressers hummers to prom like what and how I did YOU wrong to even begin with?

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I was proud you left the apt in good shape and didn’t take nothing though

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I’m not gonna hit you just not gonna help you either

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Dresses* she had the bed prom dresses that was my baby girl so I thought and I’m hurt

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Best*

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I got black listed cause she stole a diamond on a job I got her and she still ain’t even tell me

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Jamie didn’t get like 1/7th of what you got…I’d give a gift then cut and then pray

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Yeah… went into psych like I think I just saw my friends daughter on the video

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It went too far… I can’t trust just had to see for myself but when you needed a new boat I was OUT

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Don’t wanna know… don’t want to care… but whoa

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We grown though… right?

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I can’t help it I hate bullies… you not gonna… never mind

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It’s when I think you hate me too is when I lose it too

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I don’t have cigarettes or a vape

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That means personal comfort too

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Guess someone feel strong I didn’t struggle enough

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Or squirm…

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And then they shot Nipsy… I get it… I’ll help stop it pac

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Cause that’s pac talking shit to a woman

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I do pray there is some land where we all still alive and happy type

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Them forehead kisses are everything pac

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When shit get right

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I got up to fly… now I know why too.. I miss you worried he mad but he playing me too and idk how to feel about that

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We was in it for blow hoe but you made it over a man

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If this how I have to feel and live and act then you got to go too

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Torturing me away from my council cause they scared

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They here to judge me not you… but if you want to continue to piss them off and meet my god… by all means

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I have to guess but I think like 94 Cera - my daughter called them and I co-signed

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Her dad was there too… so what is going on?

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2004

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Not funny STOP they WILL hit you too

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Yeah

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What changed when I got shot though?

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No clue don’t want to know and grateful I don’t

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She called in 04 when they slept me and I told her it was ok I was with god and she realized I snapped probably

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Even

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They’ll kill you if you try too

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I think he still here…

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Why so mad though? Bleed and breathe

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I like to break glass it helps

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Please he would kill me lok

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Just better at war

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No way in hell will you ever be on my field 97

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I see you… idk either but if they wasn’t blocking and making me feel sick and not like myself… that look look like you losing respect for me too

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I need sleep

[NoNun2]

I get it..: and then she tried to blow my vv off then I told him to tell her pucker up I’m a spit in her mouth and you don’t even want her so what’s the psychos problem? I’m white? Or you a genius side stepping her too! Why do we even have to

[NoNun2]

I get it..: and then she tried to blow my vv off then I told him to tell her pucker up I’m a spit in her mouth and you don’t even want her so what’s the psychos problem? I’m white? Or you a genius side stepping her too! Why do we even have to

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@Candy almost at 600k!!!! You think they’d give us a dollar a hit?

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Ming didn’t make it…

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But everyone else here I think

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5 was my beeper code… I would just text 5 cause bitches in ct are crazy and I didn’t want them to get my number

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I would get so mad at my ex cause he had the same number for like 10 years plus but I always had to change my number cause his bitches or other confused stalkers

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Pretty sure we would’ve lived in Cali and I would’ve got time with my cousins too

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Out here alone…

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I would get frustrated cause she was too good for her own family - fuck her

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Her sister idoled her too

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It was so sad to watch the 2 times in like 30 years I ever met her

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The ride with us collide with us - me

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My tug so I don’t want to tell everybody

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He wasn’t dissing me he was pissing her off talking shit to her

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Was this put before or after someone tried shooting my vv out

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Off*

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That’s so cute too… my ex had the biggest crush on Stacy dash

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The murder was my high school party got shot up and a star athlete with a baby on the way got killed

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The bullet rarely goes where intended… my first slow mo and hallucination and toungues

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Yeah me and my hellmate was toe to toe like ready let’s go… it was to save not kill

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He did 26 years he snapped after

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That’s the “get your ass in the trunk” smh

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Political he had to take the plea it wasn’t like that

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It was part of the deal

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I hope future laws and stuff be more forgiving… he can’t find a job over $15 per hour

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I wrote about it… the day the world stood still brb I’ll posit it

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The day the world stood still…

If my pen was a paintbrush, I’d paint a picture to see.
A story in time; when da walls closed n on me.
It was the day the world stood still, innocence lost, and tragedy fill
A day of ending and new beginning –
Witnessed a war: righteousness vs. sinning.
The day started as one of pride,
I couldn’t imagine the secrets the night would hide.
I couldn’t imagine the faith I would come to learn,
Or the realities brought forth of souls doomed to burn.

Don’t know the alpha or the omega, neither was in sight,
but I do know the harsh reality of my bliss that night.
Perhaps I'll never know why I was the only one in the room…
And perhaps I’ll never stop wondering if ultimately it'd be my doom.
Felt like an eternity standing toe to toe,
All the while --- thinking to myself friend or foe?
I looked at him and he looked back at me it seemed it was forever, paralyzed an eternity.
But it wasn't the eyes of my enemy,
More like a familiar stare I became aware that was long lost to me.
But yes, the eyes were cold, they were dark, and they were piercing me,
What courage it took for the angel who ran upstairs to rescue me,
at that moment I realized a hero is way more than anything I could ever hope to be.


I flew down the stairs, passed the quiet guard,
jumped over the porch landed on my feet into the yard,
And there I stood as if I was in this world alone,
and I wasn’t snapped back until to the ground I was thrown.

I think I was in awe, cause I realized the ramifications of what I just saw.
“For by thee I have run through a troop; and by God have leaped over a wall”
Literally!
For this is the night I believe the angels carried me –
The halos and horns I could see so vividly
That is why I believe in my heart a martyr fell before we.

Be still fear in our enemies with ignorance their disguise
Behold the angels with the tears in their eyes.
In that moment we all came to be one – there was no divisible sides,
Together we stood and for a second coexistence won.
There together to witness and mourn the wrong that has been done.
And that is the true meaning of loss when you all wanna talk about “lost one.”

And to he, at his last breath I think he took me too,
And left a lasting impression too real and too true.
For I felt the weight lifted when a spirit was called home and I knew it was accepted,
Not left here to roam.
It wasn’t at that moment I felt restored to reality
But the world stood still did not move again until I felt that first snowflake touch me.
Now, hail Mary

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It’s funny cause the ones still in it our moms all worked together at the same factory… I always said if Hail Mary hit it goes to them for his daughter too

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I do… I wonder a lot if I was better off just staying naive and not waking up and realizing… but I’m still grateful because now I know why my heart was always so hurt and empty

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I still tell myself he made it… I know

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I’m not going to get better until I accept that he died I guess

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Pac heavy artillery guys… think what you want

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I bet almost all of you are

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I read the Quran because I was told to when my daughter was wishing for my bjrthdays back but I didn’t want to disrespect and be nosy… but after that assault that I felt tied and couldn’t move and had to hear all that sick shit at the same time - I felt betrayed - that’s why I read it… I was mad at my god but I’m back

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I’ve learned in mental that 2 people can be sitting next to each other and be in comeotet different worlds… maybe we all are

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As long as they stop playing wack music and confusing me

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I like the YouTube pushes though

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Guys… he really might be coming back

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Do you think he made it?

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So the creeper who parked behind my car and I hit it… he had a 20 year old hoop d damaged in the spot I hit fixed his door so he can open it… but reported to my insurance SOOO I had to fix my car… my insurance jumped to like $1k a month I think - over a febder bender

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Fender*

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Why he didn’t want to show me his license though? Did he report under legit name?

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I’m scared of EVERYTHING weird

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Cause my space was up too in 2nd spot and he parked at last stop like 5-7 spots away… what was he doing so far up right behind my car to begin with?

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Just want some civil rites back too

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Pls I know how you all scared of politicians… freeze don’t shoot… no… but I’m still just saying

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Well guys… the angels may not be crying anymore

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Hell down… we up

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Take it as serious as you want to… not my problem you just scared

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Pls don’t let them shoot, kidnap, soell, stalk, own… like for real and I’m gong to be mad as fuck if I don’t get some fun here too

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Fun again*

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Hoping he come back to KICK KEVINS ASS

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They set me up and I know it… why would I?

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Worried about those spikes but Lord please

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Trying to post gin and juice and let them know for Mung next round

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I’m not gonna be, respect, or bitched by anybody abusive

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Me and my hell mate getting out

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I don’t like you guys so why do I have to?

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Or why do you swear I have to?

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Too my baby girl it’s not that serious… revelations is so personal and literally to just specifically to you… cause personally I haulcinate bur neve took a hallucinogenic SO stay good yoiu are good… you can even die and not even notice… everyone’s fine

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Sorry… not to you like that the person*

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Tired of seeing and living their nightmares too

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What do we do?

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Why you only come back when I’m with someone else though?

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Especially after waiting so long

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Trust issues… don’t know what level we at

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Jicera… what’s your take? I like aliens, always been scared of the concept, but seen some weird and real shit - the car today like wtf is that? LMAO

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I always did say My Father creator of Heaven and EARTH… not space and I already got mad and broke a promise by reading it maybe

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I’m at the basics right now

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He refuses to accept no

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Or stop

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Pac… that’s not my problem I didn’t promise anyone a thing like that

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Why would I?

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You can’t force somebody to want you… that’s sick - pac please help

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I don’t like it… I don’t like them

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I can breathe a little I just hate when I feel like other people and not myself

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I don’t act liking or want a flow so why

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I’m not some shell I’m still in here and it’s gross

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I don’t like acting*

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You or my hell mate and THATS IT

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Getting stalked and not the stalker too

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I literally hear their voices and it gives me cringes

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It’s uncomfortable inside here who stole my comfort and peace?

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Gonna eat and go to sleep

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Do something to prove it’s not Kevin so they stop

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I think he has everyone thinking he’s you

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I’m gonna go to sleep… nite

[NoNun2]

Why won’t they let me feel better? Why do they keep closing my instagrams and won’t let me get another