A Disciple's Thread

[NoNun2]

Talking about manipulating a bitch into your plan for her against her wishes and decisions every time

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What? You think you can make me love you or something? NOT I’m miserable in this environment - my hell mate free why I’m not

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You just stay fucking with my head how many years now?

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Until they get the answer they want - that’s when they’ll stop

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Fuck all that… I refuse to submit to people that are less than me. You’re too selfish you think you can make my life be all about you

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Get them off me please I don’t know how to do that either

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NOBODY will tell me wtf is going on

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My mom probably signed legal agreement not to tell me idk idc yes or no… it’s that easy

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I wish more people could be point blank

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Feel like talking shit to my aunt but I’ll shut up… why did my cousin stop doing her make up? She was really good at it

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When I realized she knew what I was talking about… either someone lied about it and said I was or they have tied down with more than invisible chains

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Have me tied down with more than invisible chains… If you ain’t dead leave my body alone

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Yes

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Well no one told me about it but Jayme was there when my mom was on the floor

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We need some 30+ clubs

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She had a paw tattoo but never smelled so idk and that better be why or them bitches fucked

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I asked her if I found a vampire would she be down and she said hell yeah

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Why you wouldn’t help my best friend?

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It can get rid of the black plague but not cancer? I don’t believe that

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Get off my body and put me back to ghost taps please

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You can do all that and all that twisted shit though… I’m medical you’re fucking sick

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Get off me PERIOD

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First question for God… how can someone change your religion without permission or consent?

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I don’t want anything to do with them why would I ever be their friends again? and why they just won’t go away… well I know it’s because they are twisted and sick and evil and scared to leave the scene of the crime

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They just need to know that they’re not caught and make sure their lies are working

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I bet you one of them on this thread right now

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I have enough with the medical voices I hear and don’t need to hear them too

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Why do they think MY life is about THEM? Why do they keep poking me

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Least favorite friend, thought I had to friend knew she was a little off but not this bad

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I didn’t know them bitches at alll

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They pretend well… at least they know what the right thing to do is they just chose not to do it

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Yes proof I can go on a stand for that on 3 of them

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What do you call looking at and touching me with out my knowledge permission or consent… then dumb enough to talk about it… I caught BJ, SH, and KA

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Laughing in my face talking about it like it was someone else too… I get it

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I feel gross cause of that

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When did they turn me into a human toy then blow up doll and how and why and how do I know it can never happen again?

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How did people like them get more rites over me then even me?

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Second question for God

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Didn’t think stuff like that was possible

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Kept too busy to think or remember

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If you were tied down invisibly and couldn’t push him off you while they were saying all that sick shit you might’ve thought about changing your religion too

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They still trying

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I know they can’t do it for me but they better stop trying

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Then he said it was the best sex? Out of here freak

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Cause I have nothing to hide I ai t ever do shit that I’m not prepared to answer for and ask god

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So you think I’m a lie to god before you?

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Get off my roof and put me back where you found me

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I’m mentally ill and don’t want to hear their voices

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Dissected a good one but why only on their command

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Disassociated*

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It happen again I’m going to jail

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Completely prepared for that

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Gonna try to sleep… services in a few hours

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Cause I blamed my mental illness on that weird shit and didn’t realize it was pastille

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Didn’t realize it was possible*

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Please make them go away and get their trash out my body

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Nite

[NoNun2]

I can’t focus until they leave me alone - but that’s what it feels like

[NoNun2]

I get it pac… just that easy you don’t trust him

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What’s wrong? EAT

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My brother a sister we’re both drug addicts when I was growing up… I learned to hate them and used to be really mean to them but when I switched teams they were nice to their customers and so I was too… my biggest mistake was reapexting a coke head because I then became one too… I think it’s best to keep the disrespect going to be honest

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My brother and sister both have over 25 years of sobriety now

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It sucks to be bad at something good… but then I realized I was damn good executive assistant too

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To be good at something bad*

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Yeah I used to be good at computers too lmfao and yeah just never fit anywhere always being sided for the next too

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Didn’t care… if it wasn’t real I didn’t want it either

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Yeah we were young like that 2

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Toio*

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Nothing on this earth would EVER make me hurt my family though

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Cause I wanted a club lol and a laundry mat so I started paying attention

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When the salon came in it was a wrap

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Hell no lol

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I know I can jump back in and get what 16 years? Fuck all that

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I know I can jump back in and get what 16 years? Fuck all that

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I know I can jump back in and get what 16 years? Fuck all that

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Not even for that $143.5M I’m determined to get out of all this

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It was my goal when I cashed in on my pension and 401k to move back home… my mom looked like hell on a visit

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You know she actually got me to eat fish today that wasn’t fried. It was good as all hell

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Lost the final remainder moving to Norwalk

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I cut 7 grams to 32 back then nah… he got a beat down lmfao

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So I shot up the wall with a paint gun etc etc etc

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Shit just got escalated way out of proportion - nobody give a fuck about that anymore

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Only custies like fish scale… it’s light as fuck

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I walked by a plant and my Nextel hummed

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I assumed it was the police watching and I was quit so I didn’t care

[NoNun2]

Where did my wu track 10 piece go… do you know how hard I worked on that one?

[NoNun2]

If I was in the industry… I’d switch to bonuses and salaries while branching all together like a corporation to add benefits too

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Show money your money

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Like a union

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OK… everything under CLA919 for a fully loaded 2026 blazer and to pay off my student loans?

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I can write more I write 90% more than I trace

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I traced for murderers and fell asleep trac Ng their confessions - my mom found them and took me to psych lmfao

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Pay off loans and credit cards - I ruined my credit by accident again

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Everyone know the first fire the best

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I said I’m not gonna speak on it so I won’t but I’m pissed

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Ice cube hasn’t made me smile like that since a good day ) yeah my ex favored him a little old crush

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Officially on pause despite the break up

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And after that cop - I will NEVER attempt to date a white man again - and I’m not the reverse racist - they are!

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Just every time I try disaster

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And Lu ex that’s Puerto Rican he treats me like white guys do too fuck all that

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My ex*

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Some of them I let cause it doesn’t bother me and then some think their entitled and it makes me REAL mad

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My body I’m the boss… so how that not happen?

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Yeah they found PACs crazy baby mom but I’m only 75% sure now again

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Yeah why I probably flipped out the first 5 minutes of ps I love you

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Nah that’s what makes them crazier then me.. I AM legit mentally ill despite them

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Just… it has nothing to do with authority - it’s you only live once and I have to

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I want my mark here too

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Somethings to say I’m here and I made it for you too God

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“Cause gods gift to you is life and what you do with it your gift back”

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I want to fix jail and mental so that they can actually fix us not cage us and mask symptoms I’m living proof that there is life after insanity

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You can fix us

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I hit insanity like 6 times or 9 in one year after getting shot - will someone at least tell 50 cent if I was or was not shot cause they won’t tell me

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If they robbing people or selling drugs give them an education and job and if they raping people or hurting kids cut off their dick

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Group them together so they don’t learn how to commit new crimes

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Keep gangs away from each other rather then forcing them to share cells

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Stop aggregating us talking shit on purpose cause you don’t know what it’s like to pop off

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That should be a hate crime too

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NOBODY likes losing control

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It’s like you make fun of us for fucking up probably just like you did only we got caught

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Every co has its study and honestly - I’ll shut up but I didn’t forget you either or how you treated me

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Every co has their reason why*

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Why they became one

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My mom stoped doing the basement cause she thought it looked like the padded room. LMAO nah I never got the padded room but been tied to the bed twice

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As form of punishment I wasn’t violent at all

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I’m at fucked up in there

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It’s fucked up in there*

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It’s not because you all did it on purpose it’s cause he had someone on deck that quick and I’m tired

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For every bitch he give the opportunity to laugh at me and say I’m stupid like they better

[NoNun2]

I haven’t been able to eat since my boyfriend left me Friday… scared… don’t want to have to go inpatient - but I can’t even stomach an ensure

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I know one thing… when I heal… I’ll never give a man the opportunity to do this to me again

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Yo I’m really feeling uncle Murda though… OG just stepping in killing them young bucks… you go boy

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I can’t wait to ghost write - I’m a be freaking everyone out like Pac did me lol

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As a virgin getting pregnant and making my confirmation pregnant - that Hail Mary really freaked me out

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And patiently waiting by 50 too

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Got so sick when Juno came out - thinking it was Magic
Kicking my ass - not my own life story

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I don’t know if it was my own coping mechanism cause my whole life when I was hurt I’d say to myself delete and move the fuck on

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I sat in my car for 14.5 hrs going off on them on Instagram just bleeding

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The I wake up and feel embarrassed - then I get hurt or mad and do it again

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Dizzy and nauseous as fuck!!! But it really makes me want to throw up just thinking of food right now - don’t want my mom to know cause if she find out she would take me in so I’m praying I don’t pass out either

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I hate that I feel I have to lie to my mom so much just to protect her - she hurt when I hurt so I pretend that I’m ok

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One thing I’m proud of.. I finally kicked drinking again

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My bf called me sleezy but the friend he left me to fuck isn’t sleezy for fucking her friends man? Yo I don’t get that

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He twisted

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When I was in my “torture” cell in NC my phone disappeared - I went to get a new one and my dad came to the store and said no it will be back… 2 or 3 days later it was on my bed room floor - HOW DID HE KNOW IT WOULD BE BACK??

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I know in my heart it has something to do with why he drunk himself to death

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That’s why I don’t drink anymore

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My dad loved me to death!!!!!! We were VERY close

[NoNun2]

Ok guys last butt shot if I’m a be accused of being sleezy anyway

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He said my ass isn’t all I think it is… the tuck it ain’t

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Just kidding… I ain’t gonna play myself

[NoNun2]

Just cause you a snake doesn’t mean you’re grimy… it means yoU have venom

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When can I strike?

[NoNun2]

[NoNun2]

I hate him because any other night my parents would be in bed by 9

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I’ve been hated him since he told me I’d never be raped again and if I was I could kill them

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I posted I was so blessed for having my boyfriend on fb then he finds a way to break up with me

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He took all my money before he left me too

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My last friend just died and he fucked the other two I had… I recognize it’s the same game Anthony played and I’m tired as fuck

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I didn’t do anything wrong to anyone and don’t deserve to be played with

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I am never dating again

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I didn’t even want to get married in the first place but he tricked me. I think he was prepped on things to say to make me trust him and I want to know why

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I can’t eat I can’t sleep I’m sick as fuck again

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I literally have NO ONE and if I ever talk to him again I’m just using him for company but I doubt it… all the sudden he is ugly as fuck to me and the thought of him makes me want to throw up

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You pay people to hurt me why won’t you pay me?

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There’s nobody left and I’ll never trust again

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You get to every friend and bf I ever had

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The voices in my head say my old friends are going to prison for the rest of their life but I’ll believe it when I see it

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They got away with gang raping if I was shot they got away with it too and then human trafficking

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When are they going to stop and leave me alone?

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Leave me and my life alone*

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I literally have nobody but my very small family left

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I’ll never trust a friend or boyfriend again and just have to go back to learning how to be all alone

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I want to press charges on them

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Mellisa, Bobbie Jo, Kassandra, Kevin and ikon - I want to press charges

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Kassidra^

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He’s out… when am I free?

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What did I even do wrong?

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My life has been their joke and game since 1997

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TAF

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If the dope head asks me to marry him one more time he’s getting shot

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Get them away from me get them out my flesh and give me back my body and freewill

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I have no clue how they do it

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I want to know how my father knew my phone would be back in a couple of days and is it related to him drinking himself to death

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Get them out of my fucking flesh I don’t know how to

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I don’t think I’ll ever understand or forgive god

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Almost every day for 3 years

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I stopped counting at 863

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If you knew what was going on and didn’t stop them you helped and are accessories too

[NoNun2]

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Styles it made me cry

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Been Around


I used to say I’d never do a bid, and ain’t nothing in life more important then the kids
That the code of the streets was more loyal then your profile is
And that id give my life if it would give him back his
I’d say hit, shot, smoke when I’d stand in their circle
Then I lost my mind and they only cared how my birds call
When your walking or marching or just airing it out
People see you different then their reAsable doubt
They think your spoiled or special and can’t understand the fall or the respect due
They didn’t know It was half faith in My God that I was trying to show you too
You Look them in the eye and turn, tell them to shoot you in the back that’s how our law do
Or living by a code we seem to all lose
The only codes we ever understood or respect
Then they look me at can’t understand the harsh deck
And I say it’s prolly when my family left that I died
Smile and wave...
And it’s in only in secret when And if I ever cried
I’d say I’m still a lot like you
Just different, that’s why the respect too
My own seeds hate me, and I didn’t trade my life instead that’s just how fate be
And if I did it for one I did it for all... but I guess it’s just how the fallen and the walking dead fall...

Link one: http://rapbattles.com/forum/showthread.php?496671-Poker

Link two: http://rapbattles.com/forum/showthre...?496657-Return

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Turning my back saved my life once

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When I had the green dot on my forehead - it’s disrespectful to yourself to shoot someone in the back

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When I had the green dot on my forehead - it’s disrespectful to yourself to shoot someone in the back

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When I had the green dot on my forehead - it’s disrespectful to yourself to shoot someone in the back

[NoNun2]

One time we were in the parking lot after the club and my bf and his friends were standing outside the car… I got slow mo so I sat up quick and saw a red tinted car and saw the barrel peep out the window and I screamed and they all ducked and the car got confused cause they ain’t shoot yet and sped off - that’s my favorite save

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I don’t like that I don’t miss a beat when they hurt me and that’s not fair

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How do they do that… I still get fades and slow mo and prefer that cause that’s god not man

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I don’t respect no man on earth that claims to be god or a god

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I just have some ideas for belly v (bitches skipping scenes) then you can do 3 and 4

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This one of my angry songs

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Fire songs*

[NoNun2]

Yes I caught him

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They setting 50 up I think

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Well ask Jay… he would know who

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Well if missy fleiss won’t speak ask Brad

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He was my neighbor bestie

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Ced was my best friend / boyfriend

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And they won’t let me go to the other side… I barely know my other niece and nephew

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Tired of the voices for real and 2 antipsychotics too dangerous and Evan the drs said no

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So I deal with the voices… I know they’re not real but it’s annoying and as fuck and will wear you down

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Noise has been bothering me for like a month now… I can’t watch tv unless my hell mate with me

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Hey start drama when they know how sick I am… if who ever is typong thru me would just leave and stop disrespecting me would be great

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Did they kidnap me?

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I think they think their project of me is more lucrative… don’t you ever let them get my body for science please

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I woke up in the passenger seat and told Ray to boy me a hat my hair was a mess

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The rest is on ig

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Yes they tried to shoot me and the police knew it because they were waiting at his house to arrest them

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Why not just stop the shooting before it happen?

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How to sit there and watch and don’t help though?

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You’ve had Cameras on me since at least 2001… you know I’m not guilty or them

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My hell mate actually lucky he was in jail cause I’m sure they still try to blame him too… he may be a whore trying to stack but he’s not them and they keep coming in between us and I know in my heart I can’t go back

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Bobbie Jo, Melissa, Kevin, and now kassidra did this to me

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And everyone else since

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Kassidra gets a pass if she does the hard work… she failed a personality test and I realized that the way she was raised she really doesn’t know the difference between right and wrong

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I think she was a victim too

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Yes do you know how many people I caught snitching lmfao

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They won’t stop fucking with me these past 3 weeks so I keep spinning g

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I’m mentally ill of course I fall into it every time

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Yes.. he did it for them intentionally

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My phone got caught off

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They didn’t want you to find out what they did to me I THINK

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Said that was her babies dad and didn’t realize until I met her baby dad like 12 years later

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That you all look nothing alike

I don’t remember anything but passing you in the living room on the way out

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Then they blame the coke… what the fuck is the big deal about Coke? Oh wait… I know… cause then they get away with it all if I don’t dabble once a week and get out the fog

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I’ll quit everything when I know I’m safe again but I lost time and got lost again tonight and can’t handle the drama… that’s why I was in paycj to begin with I 5rh grade… I CANT STAND DRAMA AND FIGHTING

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Idky either and I don’t care…

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I can’t stand feeling like other people either or giving myself the finger… if you make them go away and leave me alone I have a chance to get better but they make me sick on purpose and I want to know why

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I want to know why nobody will tell me what’s going on either

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Every round gets worse for me and they refuse to stop

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I got mad when pat and bardo kept playing cypress hill or black sheep it could’ve been the past that said “caution when having sexual intercourse with a girl like Cheryl be sure to wear your jimmy hat condom” and I get mad… I don’t know if I remembered my daughter or not then

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And I know every word to dirty nursery rhymes

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I don’t know how to get thru this alone now

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Or where to get weed from

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I’m just delayed I get it now

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He cheated and turned off his location on purpose

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The car seat I made him show me was not his car

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I prove it to him and he get mad at me

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Since I’m sick and have been getting worse these past 3 weeks I will assume that Kevin is around and put another trick on him

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They swear they invincible cause they the police and feds and that’s how they get away with it

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I think so

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I was trying to get help

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Guess I figured out why everyone gets arrested behind me too… I’m not the snitch it wasn’t me

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It was my old friends and Kevin

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I’m mentally ill… why would I want people in my head too

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Crazier then you

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Why the fuck were you letting them publicly torture me?

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Why did you say my cat was turning on and off my tv and that the cat peed my bed and put the Bible on my floor?

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I read some of their false psych reports and if everyone hate me or kill me rhey tfhink they get my body for science

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To finish their project

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De Valente even filled the bubbles in for me

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The reports are more ridiculous than I am

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They said someone killed their selves in front me, that I was a victim of sexual abuse, that I had twins that my baby dad hurt me… what else

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And I’m the liar?

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They said I was married and mg husband was trying to kill me

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They never investigate… they knew I was accused of attempted suicide and they knew they drugged me and did it and let them come back for more

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Why?

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How much their science project pay? Cause it seem to me that everyone gets paid for hurting me

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What did they tell my hell mate that he don’t give a fuck about me anyone either

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They made the perfect victim

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I’m scared again

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In an elementary school parking lot with a cop on the side of me driving our… why would they do that to me? What do they think I did?

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I don’t even trust peace and comfort now

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When do they leave me and my life alone?

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It’s starting all over again… what’s worse than human trafficking? What are they going to do to me now?

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Is there any way to stop them cause I just got lost again tonight

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Same thing they make my bf hate me and distract him so they can hit me

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Yeah my nephew who is marines on my page

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Melissa, Bobbie Jo, Kevin and Kassidra better talk

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It started long before psych wanted my brain - why Kevin specifically? Did he have entity to do with pac getting shot? Cause I know pac would never let me get hurt

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Anything to do* I can’t stand their spirits that confuse me and type words thru me too

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My body is my temple so how that not religion

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They refuse to stop, get out of me, or take no for an answer

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They’re fucking with my phone again

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Why do they antagonize and remind me they can do what ever they want to me?

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Why are they allowed to do what ever they want to me?

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At least you got to do what you wanted to do today… the realest words I ever heard

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When are my nightmares over?

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Check the tolls I don’t know how many months or weeks they came down before to show Anne how

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I need to know if you prepped him or if we are real or not

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I’ll never fuck Jim again for this

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I’ll never fuck HIM again*

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He records everything

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So I thought I was safe but talk to him I know in my heart it’s Kevin and my old friends again

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I woke up when she was bragging about the psychos in her house

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Because I’m still trying to get free

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They fuck with my head every single fucking day

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It got worse after I got shot but I went down in Myrtle beach 2919

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2010*

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They deal with spirits too

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And I want their infections out my body… I want my ghosts back where did rhey go

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They did it when you weee in Jamaica so that I would think it was you… and I did and I thought I was safe but obviously not

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Why they hate you so much too?

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Why they don’t want me anywhere near you?

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Even before they kidnapped me

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No this isn’t what I wanted to do today

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I’m not strong enough to fight them or how they make me feel and get sick and stuff

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They never even asked me my permission to turn me into their science project

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A limp went thru my parking lot at school then the next day I went to the store and passed the same limo… how would you feel? Get the fucking freak away from me

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Limo* they’re so fucking annoying

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Yeah they’re fucking with my account confusing me agaib

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Had to wait 9 days to cash a check type shit

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Why?

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I guarantee if you get the dope head and his cartel away from me I start to get better again

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When they get out of my body and give my body back to me

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His brother does live in Cali and I want to know if they shot Tupac

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I don’t know how to feel better now

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I just want to live happy and drama free

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Let me guess Kevin is the one that told Melisa or she already knew thru her witchcraft shit

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How did they know who I was when I didn’t even

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They didn’t find out from me

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Nah I’m not going to my appt tomorrow… seems like tha same scenario last time they tried to fit me in

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Why?

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I’m trapped in this artificial bubble and they refuse to stop or let me live again… how would you feel?

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On top of my mental illness too?

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My atrophy is in the back of the head… the only drug I use it coke so that would be frontal not back

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They won’t treat me on purpose

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Please don’t ever let them get my brain or body for science

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The first time I got confused was before myrtle beach when it took me 8 hours to do my homework when it’d usually take one

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I think that’s the time I got sick and missed the concert

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Nah actually ibm and that voice mail

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I can’t fight drs and I have no defense

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I can’t fight my old friends or who ever keeps trying to type thru me

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Please just get them away from me and you’ll see how much better I do

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Writing… why they always change this shit to over a man

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Because I found a bag in my exes car that was marked like Kevin’s with a red or black marker

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And he’s cheating on me again

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For the last 3 weeks when I’ve been getting sick again

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I don’t know how they would’ve met

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It’s better than dying alive so they not gong to scare and threaten me anymore either

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The first time I was in mental on my birthday when they OD’d me I tripped over Melissa who was with her computer at my bedroom door - she said it was the only outlet and I forgot to ask why not the one in the doing room

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Dining*

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That was before Myrtle beach

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Exhausted

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They keep me broke and starving too

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Their network scares me

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Do you know how many times they have electrically robbed me. They canceled my disability

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Called and said I got it and then they denied me

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He was my peace and comfort and I loved him but he won’t stop treating me like a stupid bitch and making me sick for them on purpose is too far

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I don’t know what he was on but it wasn’t weed and I’m worried

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I have to learn to stop caring about people who don’t care about me

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He helped them make me sick today

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Because I couldn’t sit there feeling like I was tied to a bed inside

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I wish he could feel what it’s like in here most times then tell me I can go to school

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Sometimes it’s so gross I want to jump out my own skin… that’s when I feel like them

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They say I’m righteous but I’m not… I’m just not them

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I think I have a team of drs I never even met

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I think it’s when I told Dr strathl that it’s one thing when I see it faded but when I saw it sober that really fucked me up

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I don’t like it I don’t like them and they refuse to stop or give me my body back

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It hurts cause I can’t forgive people and have friends again… they get to everybody even Heidii

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Jayme was gold and she’s dead

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I can’t wait to drop 15 bronze for that

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There’s definitely a Satan ob me that’s sick like a beast - that makes me feel gross inside too

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It’s starting all over again… smmfh

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I have nobody again

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Is that why they make them fuck all my friends?

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How do I face everybody at school tomorrow?

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I wish I could just get away for a few days but I’m not wasting my school money it’s all I have

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He did it on purpose again like that work shirt… please help me to remember that and stay mad

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I don’t know how to get better

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How to feel better*

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I e been in and out of hospitals since I was 13 years old… how you not know I’m mentally ill to begin with

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And you won’t stop fiuxking with my electronics and head

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You’re making me sick on purpose

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Go away and let me get to the other side of my family without blocking me

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Did my daughter watch and see this shit too?

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Maybe I’ll take another leave if they let me

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I really loved him and he betrayed me too

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I’m fucked up right now and don’t want to go back and scared I will cause I’m bored

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I don’t know how to get my head right now

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Yeah maybe I should go play cards tomorrow idk

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That’s why they fuck all my friends right… so I have nobody?

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Then Mr desperate comes along right

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Why nobody will tell me what’s going on?

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He was fucking with my head making me sick on purpose too

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And got caught cheating on me and was doing some type of drugs too

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I’m done… I just have to make sure that when I feel better I don’t go back again

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Nah I trusted that $19 in my bra… fuck you too

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I wish I just left then

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I thougt he was trying to help me

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$10*

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Why he had to take my money first again?

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I owed him but paid extra

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Nah you don’t look like them you are them

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Just like last week… I’m not going to be able to sleep for days now

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I don’t want to write about it… is that why they did this to me?

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You’re going to stop lying and tell my family the truth… even my mother brought all my pills to me today

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What are you doing and saying that everybody hates me

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Suicide is not an option if you want me dead do it your fucking self

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FUCK YOU GET OFF MY PHONE

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My GMA died hating me too… she didn’t leave me a dime

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I heard my mom say something about splitting the money to my brother and sister… it’s all good it’s not the money that’s bothering me. Me and my gma used to be close

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I know she knows now that I didn’t do shit wrong

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It’s all good just let me make my own money

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Just tell my mom the truth before I’m dead ok

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Ok finally here comes the tears… I still didn’t drink

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It scares me when I can’t cry… I don’t wanna end up like them

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I used to have to drink to cry